New Beginnings: Part One

NEW BEGINNINGS

For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
— T.S. Eliot

Oh, the dark clouds roll away as the sun begins to shine.
Spring is here and she came right on time...

Spring is all about new beginnings, new life-
Growth, moving forward-
Rebirth, warmth.

Sometimes you’ve got to let go, release the old.
The last few years have been full of experience.
Learning, loving, leaving.
 

In the midst of the busyness I lost touch of who I was-

I became disconnected, dissatisfied, distressed.
I was caught in my impulses, desires, and reactions.

Restless I ran,
Point-A to point-B forgetting about everything in between.
Searching, seeking. 
Asking questions but closing out the answers.

I found myself at a crossroad:

One edge clinging to the past,
The other planning out the future.
Lost in my mind, in my stories, in my thoughts.

I could never truly accept where I was.

My hands tangled behind my back.
Shoulders heavy - weighed down by fear & insecurity.
My chest suffocated by expectations & role identity.
The clock kept ticking and I couldn't catch up...


And then I decided to simply stop.
I looked down at the ground-
The grass so green, right beneath my feet.